It has been quite some time since I last blogged about my journey, the road has taken a nasty turn and knocked me sideways. I am currently dealing with separation from my husband of 14 years and he has decided to go his separate ways and leave me and my daughters. To say I am ok I would be lying, I am far from ok and my daughters are devastated. This left me in quite a dark place and I have had to go to the job centre as since having my daughters and being married my husband didn't want people to look after my daughters except myself so I was a stay at home mum for 12 years. The job centre was a scary place in my home town so I was able to move to the nearest town a place where my parents go shopping as I don't drive and it would be easier for me to attend appointments on the day my parents went. The assistant was ever so helpful she was understanding to my situation. I started applying for jobs locally like school dinners but I was unsuccessful. Then she went through my cv and I sold my self as unable to do anything, but out of the cv she said you have a multitude of skills going to waste here Sarah, I can see you have an artistic flair and you have customer service experience, jewellery security, repairs, fully qualified hairdresser and you design hair flowers as a hobby. Have you thought because you don't drive and you need to be local for your daughters how about the NEA new employment allowance, which is you set up as self employed we help you with a business mentor and you will get a small weekly payment to help you out. You are able to start earning straight away, what about using your hairdressing skills. I can see you have cosmetic make up and manicure city and guilds too and it says you have worked before doing wedding hair and make up would you consider this as a career. You would choose your hours to weekends to work around the children make the hair flowers and do the hair and make up, this idea seemed ok I decided to look further into a pop up salon and as I was weighing up the pros and cons I said I think I would need something else to make up the money through the week I would rather go down the road of designing the wedding hair flowers as I also paint jute bags so I can have seasonal products to work on. I set up Fascinating flair to sell my designs all year round as most of the products I make are seasonal inspired like, Christmas jute bags, Christmas sacks and PE bags. Then came valentines, mothers day and Easter so I was busy creating and selling my art. At Christmas time I was told my drawing were good why not try a digital tablet join adobe and illustrate. My husband though he had left decided he would buy me the tablet to draw with and that's how I started to illustrate and put it onto products, on paper it looks like I have my fingers in too many pots and I've got too much going on when really I am just skimming on the top of the water trying to find the right product to sell. So for now I am designing beautiful hair flowers for weddings, drawing and putting my art onto products. At the bottom are some products I have designed through out the year of 2015 so far. If you want to take a look at more of my products you can find me on Facebook and twitter at fascinating flair. I have merchandise stores associated with www.redbubble.com/people/designsbysazyb my profile is Designsbysazyb and also on stores.clothes2order.com/fascinating-flair/.